It can be easy to put more faith in your plans rather than allowing God to mold them into his plans. You may often think that you know what is best for your life. So when things don’t go as planned, your whole world is shaken.
My Shattered Plans
This moment most vividly happened for me when my husband called to tell me that he was losing his job, effective immediately. The company just wasn’t getting enough work in and therefore had to make some cuts, his job being one of them. I was shocked, scared and angry all at once. How could they do this to us? Could there at least have been some sort of warning? Why would God give us such a blessing in this job and then rip it all away like this?
We’d already been on such a crazy emotional and financial roller coaster that I didn’t want to believe that we were on it again. He had been laid off once before and unemployed for almost two years. Then he got a job that didn’t pay very well but it was better than unemployment so we made it work. He also dealt with a lot of negativity in this job which caused him to be exhausted and irritable most of the time which strained our relationship a bit. He stayed there for nine months until he got this job.
We were so thankful when this opportunity came along. He was making more money, the job was decent and we had insurance benefits for the first time. We had plans to get our debt paid off, sell our condo and move into a house so we could start a family. So when he was laid off just ten months later, I couldn’t help but feel as though our world was turning upside down again.
Trusting God in the Midst of Trials
Though I was upset about my husband losing his job, I quickly realized that I had been trusting more in the security of my husbands paycheck and insurance benefits than in how the Lord provides for our needs. God used this experience to open my eyes to the fact that I needed to put my faith in him first.
I know God gave my husband that job for a reason, but I also know he took it away for a reason too. I am glad to say that I am finally starting to learn that God’s plan is better than my plan. There are a lot of verses that helped give me perspective. I particularly like this passage from Jeremiah:
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13 NIV
Those verses are a reminder to me that I can trust that Gods plans are best for me but also that he wants me to seek him with my whole heart. If I fail to seek him than I will fail to see his plan and inevitably start trusting in my own plan instead.
Trusting God With My Plans
I had so many plans for what I thought my life should be. I wanted a good job for my husband, the security of insurance to know I could go see a Doctor if I needed to, the hope of a new house and the start of a family. What I had to realize was that even though those things are not wrong to have, it is wrong to put more trust in those than in the Lord. I still hope for all of those things, but I also hope that I can allow God to bring it within the timing he sees as best.
My husband has been able to land various contract jobs to help keep our bills paid and I am so very thankful for that. I can’t say it has been stress free, but I continue to do the best I can to trust that God knows the plan even if I don’t. It can be a daily struggle, but I am trying to be thankful for for what I have and be open to what The Lord is trying to teach me.
Remember this; God has great plans for you, trust him and you won’t be disappointed! <—-Tweet It!
Will you let God use your plans?
Strangely Dim was a song that spoke to my heart when I was trying to grasp the reality of my shattered plans. To listen to the song and read a poem I wrote based on it check out the post titled: Strangely Dim.
- Have you ever felt like your plans were shattered?
- How did you deal with this?